This blog is just about my life and mostly revolves around my son, Jamie. This blog is a combination of everything, whether it may be a new recipe I tried, a good freebie I found, something funny Jamie said, or feelings I'm having about life in general. There's little rhyme or reason. I'll never win any blogging awards, but I enjoy writing about our lives and I mostly do it for my son. It's so easy to forget moments over the years. I've got all these little tidbits of our life in print and I hope that someday Jamie can enjoy them.

I called this blog Mother of Life, Mother of Loss because of my issues with pregnancy loss and the joy of finally bringing this wonderful person into the world. Truly, I feel the pains of loss, but you won't see too much of that here. I am blessed and I am, above all else, a mother of life.

After all the years of infertility and loss, Matthew and I were blessed with a surprise pregnancy. We were pregnant with twins, but unfortunately, Baby A could not stay with us. Baby B grew into a healthy and happy baby girl that we named Bella Marie. We are so blessed to have two beautiful children.


Friday, October 3, 2008

Jamie's Four Year Appointment

We're back from the doctor. He said he didn't believe Jamie had celiac disease. He believes we would have seen severe stomach pains and so on. Also, Jamie jumped his growth curve. He's in the 95% for height and around the 75% for weight. Certainly no signs of malnutrition there. I was surprised about the jump in his weight curve. He says it's possible, but he thinks that we will be fine to just watch him.

We're back to Autism, though. At first I thought he was going to say that Jamie was just fine. He talked about his marked improvement in speech and that he didn't even really see that he was behind anymore. I was a little surprised at that, though I knew he had some sort of language explosion over the last month. He again observed Jamie coloring and playing. Everyone talked about how smart Jamie is. He did some little tests, like messing up his lined up crayons to see how he reacted. He had him walk and noted he walked on his toes. I told him about taking Jamie to the specialist and that he didn't do a full evaluation, but that he was only really concerned about his speech at the time.

I swear that Jamie's pediatrician looks like he's getting ready to tell you that your kid is dying when he gives bad news. "There's something there." That's how he said it. He said he would help me get through the waiting lists and find him some assistance.

I had honestly started to think that maybe Jamie's issues were a figment of my imagination, reading too much, etc. I was afraid to talk about them or even bring them up. I didn't bring it up at this appointment, outside of asking about celiac disease. I felt stupid after going to the specialist and he said that he was advanced in his non-verbal skills but behind on his verbal skills. I thought I was just an idiot and it was just his speech all along. Now his speech is caught up and there is still a problem. When we found out about Matt's sister having celiac disease I thought, "Maybe I'm not crazy. Maybe that's the answer." I just don't know, but the clock is ticking until kindergarten.

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