This blog is just about my life and mostly revolves around my son, Jamie. This blog is a combination of everything, whether it may be a new recipe I tried, a good freebie I found, something funny Jamie said, or feelings I'm having about life in general. There's little rhyme or reason. I'll never win any blogging awards, but I enjoy writing about our lives and I mostly do it for my son. It's so easy to forget moments over the years. I've got all these little tidbits of our life in print and I hope that someday Jamie can enjoy them.

I called this blog Mother of Life, Mother of Loss because of my issues with pregnancy loss and the joy of finally bringing this wonderful person into the world. Truly, I feel the pains of loss, but you won't see too much of that here. I am blessed and I am, above all else, a mother of life.

After all the years of infertility and loss, Matthew and I were blessed with a surprise pregnancy. We were pregnant with twins, but unfortunately, Baby A could not stay with us. Baby B grew into a healthy and happy baby girl that we named Bella Marie. We are so blessed to have two beautiful children.

Friday, January 30, 2009

God Gave Us You by Lisa Tawn Bergren

We bought this book before Jamie was even born. We read it to my growing belly several times. On the first day that my husband and I got to spend time with our precious newborn, in the nursing area of the NICU, we brought the book. The plan was for Matthew to read it while I nursed Jamie.

"Good night sweet child," Mama said as she tucked Little Cub in.

But Little Cub wasn't quite ready to go to sleep. "Mama, where did I come from?" she asked.

"From God," her mother answered. "Your papa and I were alone, and we wanted a baby."

That was as far as Matthew got. We both started crying. Not gentle weeping, but full on heaving sobs. We couldn't read the book for months. My eyes fill with tears even now reading those words. We did want a baby so bad.

Jamie didn't have the patience for this book for several years. It is pretty long. Now he enjoys it. He looks at me quizzically on the occasions that my eyes fill with tears. "Mommy is just so happy that God gave us you."

2 Remarks:

Tamara January 30, 2009 at 11:13 AM  

I LOVE this book and after 2 years of reading it still can't make it through without tearing up!

Laura January 30, 2009 at 2:45 PM  

Now I cry more at the end. I wouldn't want any other little boy in the whole wide world.